I sat across the living room from her and I felt like with
each word coming out of her mouth, someone was placing another brick on my
shoulders.
God brought her here and this journey has been devastating
to all that I have ever known. For three years now, our life has been turned
upside down.
She told the stories and I just kept thinking, “They’re
still out there. All of the other littles are still out there.”
And it feels so heavy to walk this path that is our new
normal and to carry this weight with our now daughter and navigate these
treacherous black waters. But what if we had left her there? I can’t fathom.
But what if I had known that this would be so hard? Would I
have said it was worth it? Would I do it again?
All those little faces dance through my mind and I can feel
my heart aching under the weight of it all. I know their names. I know their
stories. I know their reality.
And what more can we do? We have Grace House and it’s a safe
place. But we are new at this whole thing and the growing pains hurt, too. The
enemy just wants to destroy and we can’t know what we don’t know.
So we bend our knees and beg God for wisdom and discernment
with our daughter and with the children’s home because we know—we KNOW—that His
heart is for the orphaned child. He is FOR us in this.
Will you join us? We need prayer for Rosa. We need prayer
for Aurilene. We need prayer for the other volunteers. We need prayer for the
kids. We need prayer for more volunteers, more people with a heart and passion
to teach and love and serve.
We need prayer.
Standing with you believing that in the vast ocean of pain our Father holds His hand out to each one of us to rescue us and draw us close and comfort us and heal all our sorrows. Your compassion and willingness to love past that which seems unbearable will be what breaks down the lies and strongholds. It comes at a great cost, but it is not in vain! Love wins.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Susi!
ReplyDeleteJust read this...and yes...will be praying...
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